Monday, December 28, 2009
Everyone seems to be writing their end of year posts. I haven't been good at posting here lately. It's been a strange year for me.
I've been trying to figure out who I am lately. Sadly, I still feel like I don't really know. Some words that will soon really describe me (single mother, disheartened, divorced, bone tired, sad) are words I thought I had worked very hard to avoid, but there they are.
Word that I have flippantly described myself with in the past are suddenly very important to me. The "Diva" idea gains a whole new perspective when I used it to prop up my whole being, not just my ego. All kinds of self-empowering ideas are coming to mind for me right now. I am trying to be open to all of them.
My new year's resolutions in the past - lose weight, be more organized, be kinder - have paled to what I hope to accomplish this next year. A full realization of what I can and want to be. It sounds daunting, but I am determined to be every single bit of it.