Monday, December 28, 2009

Ready for the end

Wordle: NewMe


Everyone seems to be writing their end of year posts. I haven't been good at posting here lately. It's been a strange year for me.

I've been trying to figure out who I am lately. Sadly, I still feel like I don't really know. Some words that will soon really describe me (single mother, disheartened, divorced, bone tired, sad) are words I thought I had worked very hard to avoid, but there they are.

Word that I have flippantly described myself with in the past are suddenly very important to me. The "Diva" idea gains a whole new perspective when I used it to prop up my whole being, not just my ego. All kinds of self-empowering ideas are coming to mind for me right now. I am trying to be open to all of them.

My new year's resolutions in the past - lose weight, be more organized, be kinder - have paled to what I hope to accomplish this next year. A full realization of what I can and want to be. It sounds daunting, but I am determined to be every single bit of it.

3 comments:

Gina Lee Kim said...

Oh hi there Gina! Loved this post. I too want those 3 resolutions: lose weight, be more organized, & be kinder But gosh, the last one's going to be hard! I think I need to personally tweak it to "be less annoying". lol..

AmyC said...

This sounds like a post I could cut and paste directly into my blog. What a year 2009 has been! Here's to a new year....a year of hope, creativity, and discovery!

Bev said...

Next...a happy post full of hope and promise...right??? You are a very talented lady with a kind heart, quick wit, a strong creative streak and have always been able to do anything you wanted to (and I should know--I've known you longer than anyone). xoxo